Sunday, October 18, 2009


It's cold; the layers have melted away.
It's exposed, raw, aching.

There's nothing left to shelter the pain.

It was snowing just last night,
It felt like home, and now
It is grey.

It felt like something worthwhile,
It was hard to take it in;
It's useless.

It's over now.

Thursday, June 4, 2009


long time no blog again....but then IS summer :D:D


here is the video of the final round of werewolf we played on tuesday....were everyone felt like killing Malcolm, but which was I have to admit, very well played. Achie looks verrry confused lol.


Tuesday, May 26, 2009


I just wrote a blog, which I was relatively pleased with and what have you, when I highlight all the text to justify it before uploading (because nooooo way am I uploading unjustified text) and vanishes.
today is turning out NOT to be my day....I burnt my laptop's power supply, exploded my mum's kenwood...and now this.
i'm off to bed

Monday, May 18, 2009

role playyyy

Hello all,

I'm in a super happy mood at the moment because
a) I actually managed to study today annnd
b) my 4 thesis copies are printed, and are cvurrently lying in my car awaiting binding tomorrow. It currently feels so good to say: The End:D

as promised Nic. Mar and Amaira, here's part 1 of our little role play game. Basically, our Sunday evening was spent firstly at Mc Cafe....having a good old laugh like only we are capable of, followed by greeting Chiara at the airport (that was a coincidence though...ish), after which we proceeded for a ride and stopped next to the chapel of.....? (xjisima nic)...and decided to play the following game. We basically created an impromtu tale...and acted it out, taking photos of every stage. Unfortunately though, my camera's batteries died out before I could actually feature properly but never fear, part 2 will come ....eventually....or maybe it won't, whatever.

The plot in brief, is the proposal and wedding of Nicolette and Karl (all together now......HA HA HA), celebrated by Maria (viva n nies qassisin), with me as the evil bridesmaid who is plotting to steal Karl away......sad I know:P

I'm only uploading one video here since there are so many photos...ill eventually upload the photos somewhere....unless nic kills me first...

but dont kill me too young to die



Thursday, May 14, 2009

the end

So I'm sitting here in room 101 with jess and romina.....I'm re-reading thesis one last time and editing again and again....I've decided this will be my last thesis day and I'll print it tomorrow or Monday and hand it in. ehhh that feels quite good

Also, I've just got back from my 8-10am lecture...or should I say my last ever 8-10am lecture, at least for this course. It feels good too...but in a way it kinda feels sad. After 3 years of going to lectures and skiving many of them you get into a routine...and I'm gonna miss that. Who knows....maybe I'll be back for another course next year....I'm not ready to join the workforce just yet.


insomma back to work

good day to allll


Tuesday, May 12, 2009


Apparently blogspot will be out tomorrow at some point, so I thought it best to write something now, since I'm bound to regret it tomorrow then.

First things first: this post will not be remotely interesting or intelligent like the number of surprising intellectual blogs I've read in the last few days (:P....who know who you are).

2. I finished my thesis....completely ie...with the conclusion, and the editing  and just finishing off my bibliography as we speak whilst watching the eurovision, and that's it...I meet my tutor tomorrow...and give it in Friday week. wohoooo

3. Eurovision....well yes, I'm not usually a eurovision person, but the fact that I'm not with Amaira droning on and on about the thing actually made me wanna watch it....and deep deep down down, I do want Chiara to pass...and Win....ehh 

4. I changed by blog background to reflect my current mood and my current favourite I am not a pink person anymore

5. Studying in the fresh air is a good idea and very healthy.....studying in the sun all day long is not, as it will make you totally red and burnt and wil make it very difficult for you to continue studying. Studying photos below....

enough said for now...results are coming out....gluck chiaraaaaaa

Sadattant results are out.....gooooooooooooooo chiaraaaa:):):)


Friday, May 8, 2009

of bad days with a far better ending....

Today was not a good day.....

apart from my disastrous 'meeting' with my tutor, losing my new Tony Blair book, and fighting with one of my greatest friends, I spent most of the day either crying, or wanting to cry, or just wanting to give up on life in general.

But there's the positive in the negative's in times like these that you realise who your true friends really are.....I was so moved...the positive words and especially with the attempts to make me smile or laugh throughout the day....I really appreciated them all.  And now I'm just back from the Marana'tha healing service at Naxxar.....I had never been to one before, and I was initally a bit apprehensive, but at the end I actually enjoyed was a very positive experience. tks Sim:)

Note to self: in times of trouble, must remember that there's a lot of good out there somewhere....and as Ger told me, 'you only have one bad day at a time, and this one is soon about to end' :D


Monday, May 4, 2009


Maaa I haven't blogged in a I predicted, this blog would just be there to get me through my thesis woes....and then I'd forget all about it.

But here I am, 4th May, 3 and a half weeks left to give in my thesis (Which is almost completely finished except for the last few changes uhuuuu)...the end is so so close now..... I can practically feel summer already....and as ive said over and over again....I can't wait.

Anyway, current song of the moment've all heard it, but it's still great, and the lyrics are so relevant and so true.

Comments appreciated:) kinda feels good to be back here:):):)

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Picture perfect

At the risk of sounding depressed, totally negative and without one fibre of hope in my being (three guesses what I'm feeling right now), I have just gone through a revelation which is small and seemingly insignificant but which really means more than it seems at first.

My beloved camera has been lying on my desk for over a week batteryless and with an empty memory card. And even before that week, it's been lying in my bag for months and I never so much as took a photo once. We haven't been having too many photo worthy moments in past times, and even if we had I don't think I'd be capturing them on film anytime soon anyway. The world is spinning so fast at the moment, and people and relationships are changing in the blink of an eye. Soon I'll wake up, and nothing will be as it is now anymore, and definetly not as it was before.


Friday, March 27, 2009

le vendredi

another Friday....another blog.

I'm once again at my Euro-Med lecture, but for once I'm paying attention.

Had a so-so week feeling sick, dizzy and what have you, worked a bit on thesis, and anyway, I'm having one hell of a boring life right now.

Did you know every single diplomat in the world plays bridge? Apparently so...heh

Matt arrives tomorrow:) can't wait....and then Sunday we have Jess and Amaira's birthday so looking forward to that too....especially....cant say anthing else for now, ha ha ha ha

i'm bored now....becky is sitting next to me and she s bored too.....then there's ger sitting on the other side playing mahjong, and rach is next to her playing with farms and sheep. The EU really affects us deeply I must say :P

enough for now


Monday, March 23, 2009

guess who's coming to town??



decided to go on skype today after a long while to talk to Mark...and found Matt online.....


he s coming to Maltaaaaa
on saturday

I'm so happy :):):):)

it's past midday:S I just woke up! As in, I woke up at 10, took 2 panadols and went straight back to bed....aaaa what is wrong with me???? 

Yesterday I broke my lenten sacrifice....went with parents and bro to Melita...and I couldn't resist....had some pizza. oooo shame on me. I have to really make up for it now. sigh....

tickets for Allo Allo just arrived....we're going to watch it on the 5th of April...and I'm rather excited...should be good:)...been watching youtube videos of the old series and some of them are really hilarious. hehe watch this. 

This week its both Karl and Jess's we should have a relatively nice weekend:)...and then next tuesday its another public holiday, so thats great too (you've just gotta love March).

How sad I realised that since I'm working most of this week I won't be able to go to the ezercizzji at uni after all......I really wanted to go, heard that Tonio Caruana is an amazing speaker. ehh mhemmx xtamel. But lately I've been planning things on the same day, or just not writing things down and forgetting. Like the 5th me and Ver wanted to go to the youth worship at the chapel, but now i went and bought tickets for that day...ehh it cant be helped....i'm growing old and my brain is shutting down. hehe.

enough for now...maybe i actually do something before I go to work.


Sunday, March 22, 2009

of perfect days

It's been a while since the last blog......well actually it hasn't really,but it sure feels like it has. Somewhere in the last week and a half my life moved from grumbling and moaning about the work I have to do and how little time I have left to do it, to just a system of working without complaint. Havn't been really out so much, and missing some of my friends A LOT, but  at least we're managing to fit in a couple of nights out per week. Holidays are around the corner now anyway so we can hopefully have some good nights out then.....I'm desperate for a couple of pints of beers! (xkien lol) I've also been working quite a bit at St James....I love it there: different artists, actors and producers showing up all the time, a million events taking place at the same time, tourists from different places.....insomma, I like my job:)

dont reall have much to say ta..... a big hello to the people I havn't seen in a while (HIIIIII:p) .....and I leave you with this....a perfect sunset on a long summer day....something which we can all hopefully enjoy relatively soon:)

enough for now

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

10 weeks....

I know I said I wouldn't worry, I wouldn't panic etc....but I can't help it. I have ten weeks to finish off and hand in my thesis, two rather complicated exams to study for, one long essay for god knows when....and after that I have absoultely no idea what it is I want to be doing, or what I actually am going to do.

The only thing I know is that I will be in Ethiopia again from the 4th to the 29th of August....and it's really the only thing worth looking forward to....though the finances are also a source of worry.
All the rest....well, it's up to Him now. I've decided to give up!

On a brigther note, a big shout out to my adorable little pest of a brother who found his way to this blog and has been teasing me ever since. Yes Jean....I DO have a blog....and's pink. Deal with it....and get back to studying for your Alevels ejja.....

Went to hear Redelectrick yesterday for the first time...had been meaning to do that for ages but never actually got round to it....I must say I was pleasantly's so nice to see Matt on stage, cos it's clearly where he belongs and he should be. So well done Matt, and keep going strong:)

enough for now.....I'm at the library so I guess I'll start writing...again...


Friday, March 13, 2009

baking frenzy

Friday is officially my blog posting day, since I usually have internet access during my 1-3 lecture and use it to indulge in my little blog here. I say usually because we don't actually have the lecture today, so I'm writing from home in the process of checking the oven to make sure my brownies don't get burnt. Because lately I've become cooking-obsessed all over again...and so I've been baking and cooking things to my heart's delight....much to my mother's shock when she sees the kitchen when I'm finished (but I always clean up ta....and plus she enjoys it cos it means she doesn't have to cook herself hehe).
So insomma, I'm making brownies and shortbread for after the 9pm mass tomorrow at who wants to taste, come to mass. hehe
I am sincerely regretting my past two manga posts....I think....I'll know for sure tomorrow evening. I hope that what I'm thinking won't actually occur....sigh.
Also, I've decided to stop worrying...about the future.....when it comes, it will come. (and I'm so cringing at the literal Maltese translation hehe)
that's it for now....some thesis-writing now I hope, and then tonight slumdog millionaire...can't wait.
over and out

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Face Your Manga

ehh since EVERYONE said that my past didn't resemble me, I made a new one. And I seriously do think she resembles me now!!! (though she ain't very pretty miskina....sigh lol)

Wednesday, March 11, 2009


Ajma.....8am and here we go.....writing of thesis officially commences for the day....I can no longer be excused for being goes on...ejjaaaaa

DISCLAIMER...The above message is just as a personal source of encouragement and motivation and is by no means supposed to make sense.

Created my own manga thing yesterday....cute no, looks exactly like me hehe
Alloraa...andiamo a lavorare!


Monday, March 9, 2009

don't touch my hairbrush

kids learn through stories, colourful examples, song and dance. and since we're really all still kids deep down (well at least I'm pretty sure I am so...), watch the following's so fuzzy and cute, and it has a message. It's so sweet.....

Hello to ann....who kindly sent the link to the vid so that I wouldn't waste time looking for it myself...I promise you to make brownies this weekend and get you some:)


Hellllooooo to kristina who has to endure my presence at the upper reception till 9pm.....she's been complaing since she got I'm guessing I'm the one who's going to do the enduring filfatt....

ha ha ha

so much for lesson learning

i love you

ps im sick at work, hence I'm high...I don't really love anyone in particular apart from my teddy bear and the kids in Egypt and Addis....or maybe I do....but then again maybe I don't....muahahahhahahaa

I'm sick...just endure it!

Sunday, March 8, 2009


:(.....didn't sleep much this evening....had the worst nightmare I ever remember having, and not only did it scare the shit out of me, but especially cos it involved some of the people I love the most.....brrr don't wanna think about it anymore.

not having a great day....
hoping for a better week


Friday, March 6, 2009

oooooo I'm a believer

so we re here during Euro Med again....its just me, Rach and Ger for the moment.....Becky might or might not show upppppppppppppppppp

and econonmics result just came outtttt.....its  BBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB


So we decided to write a poem about it.

Economics was a drag, 
a long semester of skiving trend,

But our results relieve our mind,
It's one step closer to the end


we took this photo during the lecture....and there s a child running just outside the room sreaming aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa lolololol
harwood said: 'i wouldn't be surprised if he s possessed....let me just go check if his head's still lucky his mother and father'
ha ha

im in a splendid mood:D


Exactly two weeks to the day when I posted about how sick I was, here I find myself.....yes you've  guessed it....sick....again! I'm going to see a doctor this time round, even though I really really hate doctors (sorry John). 

Call me crazy....but I'm just loving this weather. The whole not knowing what to wear cos it might rain later on or it might be too warm for winter it! :)

'Tonight drinks at Kat's and Mass's house.....I'm really looking forward cos I havent seen them in a while, and especially missed little Mrs Trouble's hmierjiet a lot....(yes that's you Kat:P)

more later
Dan the meantime the doctor arrived....yippee have a throat inflammation x gost. oh I'll start getting better I guees ux....c'est la vie:)

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Spit lessons

Nostalgia and sadness are now firmly put behind me, and I'm determined to make the most of what I have around me for now. It's amazing though, how you can be on an all time high one moment, and fall so low the next. 

Today had a marathon of spit, and we played one particular game with two packs of was soooo nervewrecking: one second you think you're getting somewhere, and your pile is slowly vanishing and  BAHM!! one move and you're back where you started all along, or even worse off behind. A lot like life I guess; fun at times, so frustrating at others, makes you mad at everyone else at some points, creates hope and anticipation when you think you're getting somewhere. And then joy, sorrow, defeat when it's all over, possibly even relief. And ultimately you will forget all about it, or you will just remember it but it will lose the significance it had originally. It's amazing what a game of spit can do to. haha. Just for the record, I lost....again.

Must stop philosophising...or however that's spelt. Getting along with thesis's a slow process but taking shape, and if I give it some more effort I'll be write on track where I should be. The trouble is finding the concentration to do it....but somehow...I will:)


Sunday, March 1, 2009

Nostalgia big time

I'm lying under my quilt trying to sleep just now...and a big big bout of nostalgia for the events of last year hits me like a wave. Not really sure why I'm thinking about this now, but I just can't help remember all the stupid, crazy, lovely things we did in the past couple of years, and sadly realise how much life has had to change since then. I have to confess I miss you (ie Mark and MGS) so so so so so so so (you get the point) much....and I'd give anything to rewind back to last year and laugh one good laugh like we used to.


However since we can't exactly turn back time (yet....was watching Smallville yesterday and they do that a you never know, muahaha)...I'm attaching these two videos taken last year, with shit quality and whatever, but which always make me laugh a lot. There are loads of others I could and would post, but I fear some form one students (u min ghandu jifimni, jifimni) might find their way to this blog and then panic will arise...hahaha...

First vid is from the picnic at Delimara last year, and Karl relating his almost abduction story in true Amaira fashion...the censored parts were obviously censored haha

This second vid is from Malc's last birthday and the surprise at SAC we had made him; it's what I call a typical us moment: weeks of plotting and worrying that Malc's gonna find out the surprise we were planning, only to have him completely and utterly oblivious to the very last minute, Mark complete with balloons and me and Matt laughing like two complete idiots. haha ...good times indeed!

And to end this semi-nostalgic, semi-pessimistic blog on a more optimistic, more anticipant note, I can only say this: though it's hard (and believe me it is bloody hard), don't dwell on the good times like it's a bad thing they're gone, but thank God for all the wonderful memories, keep them close to your heart and cherish them, for they have changed your life and will continue to do so forever. And anyway, the separation is only temporary....the laughs will be back...for sure.


Much love,

Friday, February 27, 2009

Lecture stresssssssssssssssss

Geraldine is sitting next to me,

Geraldine is really bored,
Geraldine says she is beautiful,
And I'm thinking: " Oh Lord!"

Becky is on the other side,
Becky thinks we need a life,
Becky wants us to shut up,
And we think she should grow up.

Rachel is also sitting here, 
Rachel is somehow having fun  .... (NOT)
Rachel is playing with the plug
And we're all hoping it brings her luck.

These short verses were brought to you in collaboration with the Euro-Med lecture on this very chilly Friday afternoon, as a result of boredom and the dire need for us girls to get a life. Now I'm expecting comments from Ger, Rach AND Beck (yes's really you); didn't write a poem about myself cos I'm too special, so suggestions welcome:P best post wins a special prize....ha ha ha

much love, on this very boring Friday afternoon,

(and thanks to Ger for sending me the notes I was supposed to be typing whilst writing Ger ibatomli:P)


Monday, February 23, 2009

Viva l-Karnival

It's official: carnival is the most useless and ridiculous holiday out there, and I hate it....HATE IT!!!!
No offence to all you carnival lovers out there, but I see little joy in dressing up as god knows what and parading the streets of Valletta, Hamrun and wherever else looking like an idiot, with loud loud music playing everything from the Macarena to a Happy Birthday rock remix, and Claudette Pace screeching in the background. At least that's what carnival sounds likes from the super thick, many centuries old walls of Sjc, where I happened to be during not one but TWO such carnival afternoons/evenings. And where I am writing at this very minute. aaaaaaaaaaa

Not in the best of mood's today sorry....I don't wanna be in this place (literally, and metaphorically), and I just wanna cover myself with my quilt and continue watching House till I dose off.

On a completely different note, this is for Liana and Matthew....I know you love it and I love it too. I miss you guys. xxxx


Thursday, February 19, 2009

Just for fun

This is just a random post following the whole FB note tagging craze, so this is the Google Verb Meme thing. You basically answer the following questions by imputting your name plus the rest in a search engine

 The questions are:
Q: Type in "[your name] needs" in the Google search.
Q: Type in "[your name] looks like" in Google search.
Q: Type in "[your name] says" in Google search.
Q: Type in "[your name] wants" in Google search.
Q: Type in "[your name] does" in Google search.
Q: Type in "[your name] hates" in Google search.
Q: Type in "[your name] asks" in Google search.
Q: Type in "[your name] likes " in Google search.
Q: Type in "[your name] eats " in Google search.
Q: Type in "[your name] wears " in Google search.
Q: Type in "[your name] was arrested for" in Google Search.
Q: Type in "[your name] loves" in Google Search.

Daniela needs to eat! (lol)
Daniela looks like a rocker with attitude
Daniela says "I hate to admit it, but when I first started modeling I didn't like to exercise," (mur obsor lol)
Daniela wants new breasts, according to News of the World. (1. i did not chose this 2. it is so not true)
Daniela does not chat or instant message on line, and does not use email to communicate with fans.
Daniela hates exams can't wait until summer!
Daniela asks  if I can recommend anywhere for him to seek work in these tough times. ( great, I'm recommending now)
Daniela likes Rock.
Daniela eats meat once again. (like i ever stopped)
Daniela wears prada.
Daniela was arrested for having sex with student. (did not!)
Daniela loves Nick's Q&A profile. (Who the hell is Nick?!)

Funny no? Was supposed to tag people to do the same and send it back, but since I know you won't (boriiinggg:P:P), well then I won't ux. hehe. Always go with the flow.


Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Es lässt Kälte erfrieren!

Man it's cold! Slept for an hour, expected to find my feet nice and warm...but whole block of ice. It's never been so cold before; it's usually nice and sunny in February, and we're practically in March now so it's usually summer already. ehh....the world's coming to an end, or global warming is finally catching up on us....whatever it is....

Es lässt Kälte erfrieren!

 Insomma,  I've been watching Music and Lyrics this weekend, and particularly liked one song which features, so posting the video here. Enjoy:)


Monday, February 16, 2009


You reach a certain point in your life, where you more or less know what you want to be doing in the near future, and have more or less decided which path to take, when suddenly a new, enticing option pops up out of nowhere and takes you completely by surprise. The only trouble is choosing which path to actually take; the one you had decided to pursue all along, or the new unknown option.

It's safe to say I'm going through this myself; I've been thinking about it all the time for a long while now, and this weekend was a sort of a revelation which left me all the more confused. I have till the 22nd of May to finish off and give in my thesis, then a couple of exams and after that.....who knows? The world's all mine to discover. Problem is, I'm not quite sure I'm ready to discover the world as yet. I'm happy with my life as it is right now, with the things I'm doing and the people who are in it, and I'm so afraid the change will bring along changes to the relationships with the people I've come to love so much in these last couple of years, months and weeks. It all oh so stressful....sigh.

A few months ago I was panicking because I didn't see any roads to take in front of me, and now....there are so many I don't know which one to chose.

I'll decide eventually I guess....hope I manage to make the right choice.

Until then, thesis writing continues:)
Much love,

PS I'm not really in this depressive mood ta, I was just thinking a lot these last couple of days (and didn't hurt, so much:P)


Saturday, February 14, 2009

Happy Valentine's Day

Since today is officially the feast dedicated to love, I thought it best to dedicate a special blog to the occasion. I received the cutest ecard ever from a great friend this morning, and liked the message so much that I've decided to share; after all, Valentine's day isn't just about love between two people, but it's about celebrating with all those who are there for you through the good times and the bad, the ups and downs, the highs and lows, every single day of your life. And I must say I feel really blessed that I have many of those people in my life:)

Anyway here goes:

Valentine's Day is the perfect day for remembering special people:
The warm, caring people God brings to our lives.
The people who bless us through the special things they say or do.

The God of love and peace shall be with you.

Happy Valentine's Day

Friday, February 13, 2009


I was sick two weeks ago....and I didn't let myself get better properly so got sick again this week:S...must say today's the worst day so far this week....I've been coughing all morning and have no voice, plus my nose and ears hurt. It's so sad.

Guess I'm stuck inside today in bed, wrapped up in a million quilts...I HAVE TO get better by tomorrow....big plans and will see them through no matter what:)

It's off to write some thesis then I guess....


Wednesday, February 11, 2009


AAAAAAAAA My first result just came out....or rather it came out earlier today but me and my course mates only realised it now....and I passed:):):) i'm so happy I could fact, I probably will:D

Life is good....sometimes we just don't realise it.

Enough said.


Sunday, February 8, 2009

First post

Due to the alarming number of blogs that have been arising in these past months, I've decided to join the mass and create my very own; a welcome distraction from Facebook I guess:)

Not planning to write much, but will occassionally jot down some random thoughts as thesis stress starts to pile up (and that should happen pretty soon I guess now:S).

In case you're wondering about the inspiration behind my blog name, Supermassive Black Hole is a Muse song, and Leave Out All The Rest is Linkin Park's, and they both feature in the recent Twilight movie, which of course I am TOTALLY crazy about...sigh...

enough for the first time I guess